Me...

I was on my bed, thinking bout what I could've achieved all these years. I was nearly in tears thinking bout all those years I've wasted. I'm slowly loosing my confidence, I already do feel worthless.

When I was four, my parents bought me my first encylopedia,and we read the whole book together alot. I grew fond of the book, I could classify all sorts of animals when I was four. It was something most of my friends couldn't do till 10.I was also fan of Dinosaurs, I could name almost every dinosaur that walked Planet Earth, I could even tell you what they ate and where they lived. When I was five my dad thought me maths,and I was good wen it came to memorising my times table. My parents wanted me to be more advanced than my friends, but it came with a price though. Lets just say I hated their punishment wen I got their questions wrong.

Primary school sucked like shit for me. First of all I hated my teachers and the stupid textbooks. But I had two good friends who made school a little fun. I did shine academically in Primary school, but i slowly lost my shine wen I entered High school.

Once again I hated my teachers in High School. I didnt ever understand the words that came out of their mouths. I was surprised my friends did, and they scored a HELL lotta A's. Jealousy was in the air but I kept my cool, I began to understand It's a whole new world now.

To be honest with you my dear friends I love learning new things. It gives me joy learning something new. For example, I could be glued to my TV set learning bout the properties of a black hole and Einstein's String THeory. Knowing something new made me happy. And I am fond of trying out new things, there's so many things I wanna do, allthough I have done lots, It aint enough. I also love to write, my writing skills were better. I wrote tons of articles,mostly about what I wanna see happen to this world.Slowly, I feel im becoming dumber by the second, its like im going through De-Evolution.

Coming back,to when I was in high school, I did stand out at times. Usually at soccer,disciplinary problems and my writing. But that wasn't not enough, I needed to gain the influence of my friends. Without their influence how could they believe in what I believe in. So I slowly started making fun outta myself,I did embarassing acts, and it sure made my buddies laugh. I didn't give a damn about my dignity, seeing the happy and not thinking bout their sadness,anger and pressures made me happy. Slowly I gained my popularity, my friends looked up to me, cause I always knew how to make them happy.Although they looked at me as a clown and didnt take me seriously but at least, They even looked up to me for the amount of General Knowledge I had in my head.

Till the day I met her my life turned around, all those things I wanted to do,wanted to achieve disappeared. She was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I made a vow a long time ago to never date an Indian,but she changed everything. She was the most unique person I knew, and gosh when we talked, we never ran outta things to talk bout. She was the first person to take me seriously, and I gave up my dreams and my priorities to thank her, although she didnt want it. She was the first to show me what love is, and gosh it felt good.

But of course things wen sour after a while, and she broke up with me. She did ask me back but I was scared, and I had to restore my faith. I basically loved her more than God Himself. So i knew it was wrong and took the opportunity to Love him more than anything in the world before I love her again. But I came to late, and she got together with some Bozo named Novin. Doesnt my name sound sexier? Arjun? First and foremost finding her was like finding a needle in a haystack, now my needle went through my heart. Each day I imagine the things they are doing, each day I fucking shed buckets of tears. After that, I lost confidence in everything, I wasn't a good debater anymore, I couldnt do lotsa things. But I did gain 20kg.

Now i'm in college,probably gonna pursue a career in law. Apparently, Novin wants to be cook. So she left a lawyer to be with a cook.My college mates are so much fun to be with, and they make everyday fun. Studying at this level is much more fun,thanks to the new topics im learning about. It may seem childish,but I wanna be a leader for this country. Im gonna make n example to the world,countries would no longer care bout the borders that separate them. No more innocent children dying. No more animals loosing their homes. And no more children dying because of our ignorance. But that's just a dream. Hopefully my confidence comes back.

In, conclusion my life was bumpy. I rise and fell, i went against my selfish dad alot. Thanks to him I am who I am now. I may have lost my confidence, but I still will remain hoping and fighting for the world where Love is a religion.I hope to restore the faith I have in the Lord, and make him proud of his children. I hope I get back my influence so I can continue to paint pictures of a world of Love in peoples minds.....

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Fish gotta swim,birds gotta fly,
I gotta do this before i die,
To see a world of love not war,
To live in a place where children will adore,

No need for bombs and guns,
No more leaders who act like bums,
To never see innocent blood shed,
To never see a world where wrong becomes right,

Where all of God's creations live together in peace,
No more tearing down jungles,
Healing the world we made sick,
Together I hope you hear our Planet weep,

In a land with no weeping,no hurt or no pain,
No one will ever be sick or lame,
No more fighting,
Together I hope LOVE will hold us together now.

Today was bloody boring for me, I tried smsing Cherlyn she didnt reply, I tried smsing Elaine, half way she went missing, the only number left was Rishwyn's and I thought better to stay on the safe side and not smShim. Once again Rishwyn IM JOKIN, DNT CALL ME IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NITE AND ASK ME WHY. Politics have become a major issue in our country, literally saying the citizens main topic is politics, and of course they arent praising our politicians in their conversations. Lets look like at the facts, citizens frequently converse in politics because they are DISSATISFIED!!!! It's not like the politicians are stupid, ok maybe they are, but instead of listening to the nation, they do stupid things like block bloggers and videos! Thank you BN(Babi Negara)! In singapore the parliament debates and presents new ideas to make the country prosper. I was watching a youtube video about a Dewan Negara debate, instead of debating about how they're gonna make the country better, they were calling each other names like PKR(Parti Khinzir Raksasa) and BN(Parti Babi Negara) I have only seen fights like this in standard 1, basically we should put our standard 1 students as our politicians. So people this answers your questions on why our country isn't prospering, hopefully no BN asshole sees this, or ill blog in ISA

The end of a beginning...

Hey guys...once again I came up with a really cheesy title, so bulu is in college now,and apparently he isnt the only hairy one,sad huh. So I registered late for college, hence not being able to attend orientation with my other college mates, making my first day of college a living hell. The dudes and chicks in college are fun to hang out with, sadly I wish I was more than just the weirdo from JB. Well college is much better than school for obvious reasons, no uniforms and assembly, and lots more CHICKS!!!!! God apparently made girls more good looking in Brickfields Asia College, so guys this is the place to be. So apparently I can say words like "im at campus"!!! Boo yeah Schooling Noobs! Im movin on and college is helping alot,but it still may take a while. So back to what I love doing, Ive been talking bout issues concerning love,peace and war. What I just realized is, the people of my country aint practicing love, eg:- The Allah issue, we cant use it cause we're not Muslims. Lamest excuse ever, according to Islam their religion is about peace, and not disallowing ppl to practice their faith.Fyi according to the Quran Nabi Muhammaad will personally inform Allah bout muslims who disallow others to practice their faith during judgement day for severe persecution.Looks like our church arsonists are gonna get some good scolding frm The Prophet. Anyway Christians who cant read english wanna read it in malay, thank our great extremists for making it an impossible task. Another thing I wanna stress out is, the freedom of speech,1Malaysia, one of the best goals but with the stupidest approach. How can we achieve this goal withot freedom of expression, and even if we voice out nothing's being heard. Eg:- Maths and Science in Malay,I dont wanna know what Muhyiddin ate before making that decision, but his idea was if Japan could do it why cant we. Lets look at the facts, Japans greatest achievements are creating human like robots, and the worlds greatest HD Tv's,great leaders,SUSHI, and some super cars. Lets now see our beloved Malaysia's achievement's Streamyx, Police DiRasuah Malaysia,Samy Vellu,Proton Saga,Keropok Lekor. All this during the time we used our national language,looks like we're moving backwards after all...Terima Kasih Malaysial!

she literally makes my heart beat faster

She keeps doing that. She keeps making worry. Ive liked girls before,but this is different, I dont want her I need her. I always had a reason to go back to sleep each time mom wakes me up. But after her, when I wake up I scream her name. A rich man with something valuable like money, doesnt care bout anything besides loosing the money. Ive found something more valuable than money, and I do not wanna loose it. She literally gives me palpatitions everyday,I's do anything to her and for her. I love her dearly, she has spend thousands for me, she has cried rivers because of me,she sacrificed holidays to be with me,she lied to many for me, she never will do that for anyone,and if that aint love I dont know what love is. But what have I done for her? I think im the most useless boyfriend at times. And when I come up with a blog like this I think im the best bf, and gosh she still is with me. I would do anything for her, i LOVE HER SO MUCH, She makes me complete.

Hammer to the face..needle through the heart...

Finding the right one was like finding a needle in a haystack. I found my needle and I let it go, to be a better provider. I didnt expect to come back and find out my needle went through my own heart. He stole everything that means something to me, he stole my life. All the the things that I was happy about was taken away instantly. Those things kept me alive in this hell hole I call home. I dont have a happy home, she gave me a home and I loved it, now he took it away. Its all my fault, I shouldnt have left, but I cant live without her. She's in my mind always and forever, I didnt leave to go do something stupid, I left to find God to better for her. I love her so much and it kills me knowing what's happening now. I literally lost my life, I was happier when my drunk dad was hitting me, it's more painful now. I wanna be a better provider for her I hope she allows me. I dont look like a dark skinny monster from Space Jam, I look like a normal guy at least, I dont have the face which makes girls go WOOOT!, I dont have the words to make a girl go WOOT!, but I know how to make her go WOOOOOOOOOOT! He makes her happy but she says I am the one, I am her type but she cant leave him cause she likes him,she loves me but she likes him. It's hard for me to go through this pain, but ill go through a field of needles just for her. My lungs are clean from nicotine, and I dont look like Appu, I need her care more than he does, your the only one I want,your not number seventeen. I wudn't kiss no one else, Ill do more than make you happy, Ill do more than make you like me, he stole alot dont let him steal more, I need to be alive. Can he write like this!!? I dont think so! This is some Stephanie Mayer shit! PICK ME PLSS!Dont listen to the one that says look at stars! Listen to the one that says look into my heart!

Christianity

I just declared myself a follower of Christ by water baptism, and i'm so proud of it. I love God more than anything and , he's the best dad I have ever had, but I think im the worst child he ever had. My God loves his children so dearly, but the sins we do separates us from him, each time we lie or steal drives us further from him. God is love and all he does is love us, that's why he created us to express his love. God doesn't want us to go further from him, so he sent his only son Lord Jesus Christ to be punished for our sins. For example if we stole something and we were in Court being sentenced, Jesus stands infront us to take that punishment. Our God loves us so much that he would take our punishments, our God would do that, just so that we do not get separated from him.
Im a sinner and I do not want to sin anymore, but it's just so hard, and I bet alot teens feel this way. But if you keep asking God for forgiveness, he always listen and He always wants to help. But beware of the Devil, he'll say things like you shouldt ask for forgiveness anymore, you keep sinning and God's going to get so fed up! But let me tell you the world can get dissapointed in you, your parents will get dissapointed in you, but God will not cause He understands. The Bible is God's words, and it's written by people who were inspired by God. God is so powerful, and his power is beyond anything. The Bible says love God will your heart, and love others as much as you love yourself. We christians love God so much, we want to do what he asks us to do, God wants all his children to be saved, and according to The Bible he needs us to do that.So people do not understand why we preach to non-christians at times, we live according to The Bible, and we just want to do what God wants us to do.We do not want to force we just want to tell, and i believe its up to people to receive and respect how they want to receive it and we should not pester.